1:49 PM Sunday, June 14, 2009
the irony.
i never thought that this day would come.
whereby i dare to mention a certain thing which i dont really mean to say, for you to read.
out of anger.
my bloody anger.
but i really times 10 hate you right now.
i cant say that you're self-centred and selfish, because you're not.
i cant say that you dont understand, because you do.
out of my bloody anger, i dare say that i hate you
[although i dont mean it], because you will make me feel bad just to make yourself feel good.
that is one characteristic of a jerk or a bitch.
but i certainly dont want to think of you that way.
you are one of my best friends yet i dont think you know me well enough.
and it hurts.
you know i am nothing like you.
yet our differences are the things that have been keeping us together through good times and bad.
i've been on a down low and up high but i still lose at the end of the day.
because the very moment we realise our differences, i know im already lying to myself.
i lose because i dont stick up for my own ass like you stick up for yours.
i lose because sometimes, i stick up for your ass too.
i just hate you for not seeing the things i do to make you feel satisfied.
i.
i.
i.
this is all about me, because i can never say these to you.
that will explain why i will act very 'kerek' whenever im out with you and like i mentioned you will always have something to say to save your sorry ass.
i dont want to end our pretty and ugly friendship just because i cant stand you.
im friends with you because i know you're a better person than you are now.
i've known you for quite some time now and i see your change.
but some unchanged habits of yours disappoint me.
hey, dont get me wrong. im your friend and friends stick by each other and respect each other.
so how ever disappointed i am in you, i still respect you and love you the way you are.
oh.
the irony, the irony.
♥ me. 1:49 PM
