5:32 PM Monday, March 31, 2008
life.
i'm turning 20.
and every journey that i experience has taught me priceless lessons in life.
friendship.
relationship.
never give up.
never lose hope.
if there is a will, there is a way.
persevere.
patience.
confidence.
faith.
God.
i used to give up easily on things or situations.
after giving it much thoughts, i realised, that i wont go anywhere if i give up easily.
my parents were always there for us.
i never liked to bother about whats happening around me.
but i realised, how will i ever move forward if im not eager about learning new things.
im very ambitious.
i remember my parents telling me that i have "never-ending dreams", and my fickle-mindedness, sometimes tick them off. heh.
being fickle and ambitious sometimes ticks me off too. hahaha.
anyway.
there's just a quite handful of things that i enjoy doing.
that im interested in.
it's a tad difficult for me to pick a favourite activity, because i tend to change favourites from time to time.
hehe.
however, i'll be patient for as long as i can.
to make myself as well as the people i love happy.
ey. dah sidetrack nie.like i said, my parents are always there for me and my siblings.
no matter how much stress they're facing.
no matter how much the problems i caused despite the tremendous amount of issues that have yet to be settled.
they're still there.
as i grew older, i learnt to persevere.
have faith.
never give up because there are different paths to take if you have a strong will.
be confident.
according to my mum, i "inherited" the feeling of patience from her.
only God knows.
hahaha.
friendship.
indirectly, they too, taught me how to be confident.
i wasnt much of a loudmouth[not that i am now. not THAT loud basically. haha.], back in secondary school.
i had my fun times back then.
although most of the things i did with my friends are quite childish.
still, it brings out the kid in each one of us.
these friends, they showed me how true friendship works.
because they are the ones who have been keeping me up whenever im falling.
i've never felt such a tight bond and love between these friends and myself.
be it friends from the past who still are around now or friends that i've known since i entered ite.
relationship.
5years ago, my relationship with a guy was all puppy love.
never lasted a month.
he was a friend and still is.
since then, i realised that im meant to be in a relationship when im matured enough to understand what love is.
2years ago, i got together with my boyfriend.
whom i regarded as one of my close friends.
we fought alot.
however, he taught me how to love and open up.
through the times that we fell in and out, i learnt how to be patient.
i learnt to never lose hope.
i learnt to have faith.
things that all these people have in common is love.
my life isnt as interesting or exciting, but personally, i learnt alot about myself as well as the people around.
im turning 20 this year.
who knows, it's just beginning to get interesting and exciting.
macam deep gitu kan entry i.hehe.once in a while, ey.hotak kau once in a while. heh.till then.
appreciate life people.
I'm gonna be here night after night
To feel your loving arms around me
Baby baby baby baby
You make it all right
No one but you baby baby
Can make me feel
The way you make
Make me make me make me feel♥ me. 5:32 PM
9:56 PM Monday, March 24, 2008
reasons.
okay okay.
i'll update.
hahaha.
i just got back from simpang.
joined the training which was meant for the committee members earlier.
pancit boy. hahaha.
but it was alright laa.
on a more serious note, i have yet to start on my project proposal which is due when school reopens.
haiyoh.
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whenever i lie down to go to bed, i'll start thinking about my future, my current relationship.
im worried.
sometimes, not about myself.
but some other person.
i cant help it but to think.
i confuse myself, i confuse people.
and i hate doing that.
those people arent to be blamed.
i really wish to be open and honest here in my blog but i'd rather bottle it up.
dont ask me why, ask God.
that guy was right.
when i think about everything that has been happening in my life right now and i put them all together, i can say i dont need to be in a relationship. although i need someone and im used to having my boyfriend around me, sometimes i think that at this age, all i care about is my future.
it is bad to say like that of my relationship.
but if you knew me or if you were in my shoes, i guess you'd think the same.
tsktsk.
alot has changed physically.
but mentally and emotionally, i dont think much has changed.
i'd be lying if i say im okay all the time.
what if im really not meant to be in a relationship right now?
are those things telling me not to continue with this relationship?
are these situations telling me to walk a seperate path?
or am i just doubting everything?
too many questions.
♥ me. 9:56 PM
8:12 PM Tuesday, March 04, 2008
goodbye doesnt mean forever.
seems like a handful of my ite mates are graduating soon.
and i pretty much feel for them.
its sad to leave school, especially when you have made friends with crazy yet dependable people.
however, goodbye doesnt mean forever, yes?
=)
now now.
exams are next week and i've never been all-out on revisions.
its a good thing for me. because im concerned about my future.
the family's been giving me support and telling me what are my options if choose to further my studies.
praises be to Allah.
moving on.
my class had a test yesterday and we had a 3 and a half hours break after that.
so boys being boys, they decided to play street soccer.
we already planned it since last thursday. heh.
so we brought all the necessary apparels.
unfortunately, it rained.
drizzled.
but we still continued playing until the rain stopped.
heh.
and then lunch at simpang bedok.
and we have planned to play again this thursday.
praying hard it doesnt rain.
and today.
preparation for tomorrow's presentaion for lifeskills.
honestly lifeskills is not that important but we're graded.
so, yeah.
we were done with the slides as well as preparing our speech plan only at a quarter to 5.
tomorrow's the day.
now lets get on to talking about post-exams activities.
im not sure if im being selfish by planning this outing but somehow i find that its a benefit.
self-reflection is what we need.
assurance is what we need.
perhaps, prioritisation.
we need to know what we really want.
besides that, i guess i have the urge to get together with the girls.
we have a month of break.
lets dont waste it, shall we.
these people are very much missed.(except for a few)
till then.
♥ me. 8:12 PM
9:02 PM Saturday, March 01, 2008
imagine me and you.
imagine me and you.spending time together for a day.spending time together for a night.something we rarely do.something we should do.because somehow, im ready to let it all out.because somehow, i cant hold them back any longer.i hope you know what it feels like.to have a wound rubbed with salt.and then it heals again with your touch.imagine me and you.together for a whole day.together for a whole night.you dont have to see me home.because that night, we're all alone.and it's that day, that im hoping will come.soon.♥ me. 9:02 PM
