9:14 PM Thursday, January 03, 2008
myself.
someone asked me.
until when am i going to lie to myself about everything i say and do.
its not that i do it on purpose, but somehow.
i guess its just human to make someone you love happy.
i've come to realise that i have been insecured ever since i started seeing my boyfriend.
i dont want to dwell on issues that happened 2 years ago, but those are the things that makes me feel insecured.
until today.
i know everyone is insecured about something.
perhaps its just a matter of how you overcome the fear of being insecured about something.
i admit i dont really have the looks, but i have rejected some guys because of my boyfriend.
and, i dont think he knows about it.
i may not be the best girlfriend he has ever had.
but for all the good times and bad i've been through with him, i know i've done the best i could.
somehow.
i cant really describe how i feel towards him.
no matter how much he annoys me,
no matter how much he makes me angry,
no matter how much his actions hurts me,
all i do is stand by him swallow everything like water.
because at the end of it all,
he simply knows how to make me smile.
yet im still insecured,
because of the fact that i still fear the past might happen again.
since it already happened once or was it twice,
perhaps i'd have to be prepared, ey?
so.
whats making me smile nowadays?
my teasing the family members, friends and they in turn, tease me.
im thankful for these times.
it would only be nicer if i had my own soccer ball..
oh.
i'd like to play street soccer one day.
fico sports hub, anyone?
its at jurong though.
ah wells.
i'll update again soon.
with some pictures.
till then.
i dont like to jump to conclusions, so.we'll just see, ey?♥ me. 9:14 PM
