11:02 PM Thursday, November 08, 2007
aku nak terberak.takpe, can wait.anyways.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANGGEREK!!
hehe.
pictures i took will be posted soon, okay.
now for some serious shit.
you know how dreams sometimes tend to lead you on.
when i dream about my boyfriend, i always get lead on.
and i end up getting myself hurt. haha.
dude's definition of a dream:
a dream is something that makes you wake up and say, 'oh, i should have done that'
or, 'oh, hey i would have done that'
or, 'oh, i shouldnt have done that'
which is kind of realistic if you think about it.
as for me.
when i dream about something that felt so real, i will think about it.
somehow or rather, its always about the things that i wanted & needed to feel in reality.
however, sometimes its the other way around.
my own conclusion; i might have been thinking of the worst for that whole particular day.
so thats why the thoughts came to life when i was asleep.
somehow i tend to be alittle more carefree if i dont dream.
i think i can never stop thinking unless i let go of everything.
dream
–noun 1. a succession of images, thoughts, or emotions passing through the mind during sleep.
2. the sleeping state in which this occurs.
3. an object seen in a dream.
4. an involuntary vision occurring to a person when awake.
5. a vision voluntarily indulged in while awake; daydream; reverie.
6. an aspiration; goal; aim: A trip to Europe is his dream.
7. a wild or vain fancy.
8. something of an unreal beauty, charm, or excellence.im quite a secretive bitch, laa.
i can never kick away that little poison feeling.
they say patience is virtue.
and you spread love by giving and taking.
so what if someone tests your patience, and you have that little devil in you telling you to just tell that someone off, yet in the end, you always manage to retain that frustration.
another thing.
doubts.
i will always have doubts each time i decide on something that i must do.
i cant avoid that feeling.
and it frustrates me whenever im doubtful.
magic says:
dont always be in doubt.be honest with yourself.and dillah says:
u look confused.hahah. and i have always been confused, havent i?
heee.
things can get quite complicated if you keep thinking about the worst.
let me ask.
what do you think about crying?
over any issues.
sad? weak? angry? you give up?
others?
i've cried over small, petty issues just as i've cried over things that i wish i would say, but couldnt.
i used to think that im weak whenever i cry.
but somehow, through time, i realised.
that i cant contain my anger anymore so i resorted to crying.
its kind of dumb, yes.
however, i always do that because i hate to make my situation worse than it already is.
heh.
truth is..
=)
its personal.
i'll leave you an ending with lyrics to falling from grace by the gentle waves.
You make me satisfied
You only want to ride
But that's alright by me
We happen to be free
For what tomorrow brings
No peace and broken wings
It may have been so good
But now it's understood
'Twas just a night
If I could tear my heart
And keep it miles apart
From love of beast or man
And never give a damn
If I could learn to lie
And never show my pride
I'd be just like the rest
Be someone I detest
I'm always looking for the sun
I'm always looking for the sun to shine
Love...
Destroys the best of us
Then leaves the rest of us
Thinking perhaps we'll die
Yet still we stay alive
Lost in a hollow frame
With lonely tears remain
Not knowing our life's worth
Dragging around the earth
How false the light
You make me satisfied
You only want to ride
But that's alright by me
We happen to be free
And if we fall from grace
At least we had a taste
Of something more than this
Unresolved black abyssgdnight.
♥ me. 11:02 PM
