21.

Life's a perfect natural disaster.

People like ma famille, mes amis & mon ami complete my life.
Without them, it just doesn't seem perfectly natural anymore.

It'll be a disaster.

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my biceps can get bigger, you know.
and it IS already big; i'm starting to have shoulders like a swimmer.
whats worst, it looks like an average guy's muscular shoulders, biceps and triceps.
to put everything in a simpler way, my arms look like a guy's when i flex them.
EWWW.

however.
training was great.

my bangbang is still down with fever.
please get well soon, okehs.
do as i say and insyAllah, you'll be healthy again.

its midnight.
so yes, i am tired.

EY ANYWAY!
haha.

hady mirza came to the school for a soccer match during the end of our training.
and OAC gave hady mirza our powerful HELL YEAH.
haha.

okay chaolors people.
have a good rest at home.

okeh.

my arms are super sore.
like seriously. haha. but i've been there one too many times. heh.
i joined the soontobe hierarchy training at 5 today.
sumpah penat, tapi gerek punye.
reminded me of the times where me and my fellow committee had our training. hehe.
so fun laa.

and ahnaf is down with high fever.
poor baby. =(

so after training, the people who came for training gathered at the forum. they discussed about tomorrow's oac training.
while i kept myself busy nursing ahnaf.
and then i sent ahnaf home, we took the cab.
stayed at his house for awhile.
and i left for home at 2130hours.

done by fareed.

presenting mdm yeow and the boys.

get well tomorrow, bangbang.

so this marks the end of my post.

thank you goodbye.

yesterday was nice.

had a last minute plan. and i mean VERY last minute.
me and dillah planned to hang out.
since i still want to brush up on my 3phase tutorials, i decided to hang out and study at the same time.
so we decided to call alep and discuss about the coming outing.
initially, we were to meet at round market around 1945hours.
but alep came at 2020. huaa.
he told us he had some things to settle, so no biggie.

after much deliberation[cey padahal tak sampai 1hour pon], we took our leave for home.
me and dillah took the same bus and i walked back to my block, since i was going to meet ahnaf.
i sat at the opposite void deck and started on my tutotials while waiting for him.

around 2300hours, the familiar sound of a bike moved my head to the carpark and i smiled to myself. for whatever reason i dont know why. hah.
fareed tagged along, since ahnaf usually send him home after work.
so then the three of us talked for while.
fareed forever snapping pictures of himself with any camera that he finds.
while ahnaf plays fareed's psp and i, busy with my tuts.
we took off at 2330hours.

then right now, its raining.
and my class starts at 3 later.
im kind of lazy to go school, but i have to. since i have a project to do and if the rain stops, im going for climb at 5.
my right eye is swollen. again. from the itch.
and i havent bath.

WAEITGH'SFKNGA'LSKDFGA'SK!!!!


bye.

have you ever felt so excited yet you dont want to put false hopes on yorself
but at the end of the day
you still get yourself hurt?
i have.

and god knows how many times i kept it away from everyone else.
you see.
its just like rubbing salt to a wound, you know.
i cant help it.
so i cry.
i wish he's here.

i wished someone understands me.

would you wait for someone you love, no matter what?
i would and i always have.
just that, my actions never show.

i wish to never feel this way, you know.
because it simply suck.
i wait.
i waited.
i see myself smiling and laughing.
but most of the time, i end up doing things i didnt plan to do.

fuck uh.
i'm going study later.

lazy to post all the pictures uh. zzzzz
i have more pictures but they're with ahnaf.

heh.

the camp was AWESOME laa! heee.
though i bet most of us didnt have enough sleep.

anyways.

i'll update more soon uh.
don't know what to update about right now.
i'm in the blank mode.

he's my only one,
i give him all my love.
even though my mum says no,
i just go on and on.

Love Song

Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am home again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am whole again

Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am young again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am fun again

However far away, I will always love you
However long I stay, I will always love you
Whatever words I say, I will always love you
I will always love you

Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am free again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am clean again

However far away, I will always love you
However long I stay, I will always love you
Whatever words I say, I will always love you
I will always love you

new layout.
you like? heheh.

I LOVE THE SONG. =)

anyways.
i wont be updating until next week.
and i promise, i will have some pictures posted during my camp this coming friday to sunday.

so.
till laters.
keep the tags coming, okeh.

gdnight.

muhammad ahnaf,
nurshakilah loves you.

tag replies;

nurul: i've seen the kill her thing! so funny. haha! stop it eh indian version..
ahahaha. i know!!

illa: mimpi ape? mimpi ape! story ah skit! add me @ msn.. juli_illa@mailpanas.com!
aku mimpi aku jumpe kau. pastu kita lepak2. ngan nuryna running around. thats all i remembered uh. there were more. heheheh.

diyanah: whatever~~ whateverrrr. haaewl;rkhjwerlajwer.
lol. adorable kans! and dave sayssss. GOD DAYM!

qonita: aww, i cant play the video at homeage. ):
hahah. honestly, neither can i. anyway, thanks for the concern. =)

dillah: taking cares babe! get wellsoon.
thank u baybehs. =) u too. heh.

"Big Girls Don't Cry"

Da Da Da Da
The smell of your skin lingers on me now
You're probably on your flight back to your home town
I need some shelter of my own protection baby
To be with myself and center, clarity
Peace, Serenity

[CHORUS:]
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry

The path that I'm walking
I must go alone
I must take the baby steps 'til I'm full grown, full grown
Fairytales don't always have a happy ending, do they?
And I foresee the dark ahead if I stay

[CHORUS]

Like the little school mate in the school yard
We'll play jacks and uno cards
I'll be your best friend and you'll be my Valentine
Yes you can hold my hand if you want to
'Cause I want to hold yours too
We'll be playmates and lovers and share our secret worlds
But it's time for me to go home
It's getting late, dark outside
I need to be with myself and center, clarity
Peace, Serenity

[CHORUS]

La Da Da Da Da

im currently hooked to that song.
heh.
but.
im a big girl and i still cry.
hahaa.

erms. i dont know what to blog about.
because im feeling nauseous.

gotta go.

friday.
training was alright laa.
though my hamstrings are having bad stretches.
it was all good.
simpang was much more livelier yesterday night.
with the presence of alifakaalep, sham and magic.
alep, as usual, never fail to make everyone laugh.
i laughed till i cried. just because of a lame story alep made up about smoking. haha.
my left eye was already red and painful, yet i still laughed like it was nobody's business.
so in the end, the ones left were me, ain, magic, sham, fareed, rabbit, jay, mag, siti and im.
rabbit sent me home around quarter to 0100hours.

then this morning, i find it soooo hard to open my left eye.
it was soo red, i scared myself about having sore eyes. i hope not.
anyways, its all tone down now. though its still red.

i want to make tonight's entry short, so.
till my next update.
take care.

it's nice to know that someone understands you, when no one does.

my name is shakilah.
it was never shakirah.
get it in your heads.
=)

today.
met up with my cineboy.
accompanied him go giant to look for some stuff for camp next week.
in the end we made ourselves busy by looking for places to eat.
BUT then we ended up going back to his place for late lunch.
watched cartoons. haha.
and then he sent me home at fifteen past 5.

anyway.
i have a few videos to share.
enjoys and KNOCK YOURSELVES OUT!
hee hee.




























not shure if all are going to play.
anyways,
hope you enjoyed!

i dont know why i feel so sleepy.

anyway.

i wonder.

why is love so complicated?
one moment, everything can seem so perfect.
the next, everything can go simply out of hand.
its true life has its ups and downs.
but why is it, that some situations seem so minor, it ends up like an erupting volcano?
and why, usually,
when you're feeling so "upthere", in a blink of an eye you feel you're more than six feet under?






i hope i've found the most perfect imperfect person who loves me for i am.

i lerp my cineboy.

i need to get my medicines.

fast.

climbing yesterday was gereks.
although i didnt reach the top.
dayms.
heh.

anyway.

i love muse.

"Map Of The Problematique"

Fear and panic in the air
I want to be free
From desolation and despair
And I feel like everything I say
Is being swept away
Well I refuse to let you go

I can't get it right
Get it right
Since I met you

Loneliness be over
When will this loneliness be over

Life will flash before my eyes
So scattered and lost
I want to touch the other side
And no one thinks they are to blame
Why can't we see
That when we bleed we bleed the same

I can't get it right
Get it right
Since I met you

Loneliness be over
When will this loneliness be over
Loneliness be over
When will this loneliness be over

i feel so lightheaded.

i just popped two pills of each. more than the usual dose.
i cant take it anymore.

but i've got training later on.
ive got to keep the game playing.
hehh. cey.

i'll update soon.