10:56 PM Friday, January 12, 2007
=)
hello.
well erm.
i went out hunting for jobs again today.
after that i went to school.
and pms really suck.
i shut myself out from people yesterday night and today, i almost did that. i switched off my phone the whole day.
i blame all these on pms because thats the only time i critisize myself.
and this is the worse pms.
i made myself hate me. because i feel like im being too nice to people.
sometimes they step on my head without me, realising.
and sometimes i had to be told over and over again, that im being too nice.
but im not nice at home.
im not.
i hate pms like how i made myself hate me.
this really suck. hahah.
and faking a smile and a laugh is just too easy.
im going for the entrepreneur thing tomorrow. but i dont want to get commited.
the job is okay, but im so not THE APPRENTICE material.
of course i get to be my own boss, but i dont think i want to be a businesswoman.
of course i earn money each day, and i get paid every two weeks. but i dont want to be walking around town, approaching people and saying the same things over and over again. and getting them to buy my product.
one day of experience for me is e-n-o-u-g-h.
i want to earn money, but i cant be my own boss just yet.
apprenticeship is sooo not my flave.
i want a future, i want a career.
but i dont think its going to be business. i dont talk business that much.
its not that im fussy in getting a job. im just not cut-out for entrepreneur thing.
anyways, thanks to some people who made me smile and laugh sincerely today.
though at some points i was faking it. hehe.
and bf, thanks for putting your arm aroud me. i needed it. heh.
the headache was an excuse. =/ but i really was having a migraine though. ahah.
im sorry if i was acting childish at any points. heh.
i know i havent been a good gf.
but its time for me to make it up to you. =)
gua cinta sama lu uh, beb. haha.
okay. i guess i'll stop.
wish me luck.
♥ me. 10:56 PM
