Beautiful Nightmare.

3:49 PM Sunday, December 24, 2006

on rotation; sting ft cheb mami - desert rose

a rainy day, yet again.

sometimes the weather explains your mood. and sometimes, it's true. heh.

i want to go find a job tomorrow. starbucks fooled me. wakaka.
anyways. lets not give up.
my results are going to be out soon. and i mean middle of next week. well, most probably. according to my lecturer.
i just pray for the best. heh.
speaking of which, i have yet to post the reply slip.
ergh.

you know.
sometimes i envy people because they're strong. not physically but mentally and emotionally.
sometimes i wished i was like them.
i wonder how they deal with things.
or perhaps there's a story behind them being strong?
i dont know.

what i know is, right now. my parents are trying hard to deal with the bills and the expenses.
and whenever i see or hear them talk about money and how we're lacking of it, i feel guilty.
i mean. we're the children and we've been using up their hardearned money on what we want. what we want and not what we need. of course it's their responsibility to care for us. but we're growing older.
thats why im desperate for a job now. where i earn my own money, splurge on whatever i need. i use my own money when i want to go out. and i dont have to ask them for money.
money is always the issue laa. haha.
we complain that there's nothing to do at home that's why we go out. but there is something we can do. for me, i have to do the chores.

so yeah.
im desperate for a job.
just so i can pay for my own expenses.

well.
got to go.
chao-chee-bye. =)

♥ me. 3:49 PM