21.

Life's a perfect natural disaster.

People like ma famille, mes amis & mon ami complete my life.
Without them, it just doesn't seem perfectly natural anymore.

It'll be a disaster.

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Put your music player on shuffle.Press forward for each question.Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn't make sense.NO CHEATING!

How are you feeling today?
real love. eh?

Will you get far in life?
end of the road. ouh nooo~

How do your friends see you?
beast and the harlot. ouh yeahh. \m/ ahaha

Will you get married?
seize the day.

What is your best friend's theme song?
dari jauh ku pohon maaf. LMAO!!!

What is the story of your life?
this could be love. ouh.kay.

What was high school like?
now drop. uh huh uh huh

How can you get ahead in life?
erm. some tarian song. belongs to the sister. bummer. ahahaa

What is the best thing about your friends?
bat country. ouh that means, they rock my socks!

What is in store for this weekend?
another of sister's tarian songs.

What song describes you?
apa. double u tee eff?! lol.

Describe your grandparents?
my heart. i love

How is your life going?
listen to your heart. omg. ahahahaha

What song will they play at your funeral?
only hope. okay. its very touching. =)

How does the world see you?
and another one of the sister's song. ey yor song go delete can. wakakak

Will you have a happy life?
too little too late. aww man~

What do your friends really think of you?
suasana hari raya. lol~

Do people secretly lust after you?
im not missing you. ouh yeah. means they dont. hurray! ahahaa

How can I make myself happy?
smile. YEYYY!!!!! i love lily allen

What should you do with your life?
i live my life for you. yes you. *smiles*

Will you ever have children?
dark blue. hmm. ouh well i'd take it as a yes. ahahaha

thats so funny. took it from the sister's blog.

anyways.
today was another day spent bumming at home. i swear im getting fatter. cb.
i slept at 230am yesterday. watched csi. before that, was youtube-ing whose line is it anyway. hahaa.
i've been shitting alot these past few days. hahaha. ate too much i think. or not.
will be going out with ayish and nurul this sunday.
g, about jamming. see how okay?
tomorrow, probably hanging out with bf.
if not, then its home sweet bumming.
later, prison break.
tomorrow, ghost whisperer. season finale!
i love a7x.
and saturday, most probably going jogging in the morning with the mother. heheh.
she's not going to jog along with me laa definitely.

pretty boring. not much to talk about.
so. till later.

2006 is coming to an end. goodbye.

i've been wanting to blog about this earlier this week but i kept forgetting.
now since i remember, i should write an entry.
not to point fingers at anyone, but just to share what i think.

anyways.

i read an entry in dee's blog a few days ago. and got me wondering.
when you like someone, you will do anything to get him or her. you sacrifice. sometimes you sacrifice so much, you dont know you're hurting someone. and sometimes, you hurt yourself.
when you feel that the spark isnt there anymore, you decide to just throw it away. leaving the person hanging. to you, it might not be a big deal. but to that one person, it is a big deal.
when you love someone, its the same thing. you feel that you dont want to lose him/her. yeah, you sacrifice.
when you lose someone you love, you tell yourself you can move on. but does your heart agree? you keep thinking you can move on but if your heart keeps saying you cant, then you cant.
you try every way possible to get someone back, the attention. once you have the attention, you get insecure.
and then when you manage to get back together, some things may seem or feel different.
when you break someone's heart, you dont know how they really feel. even though you've been through a heartbreak.
when you're heartbroken, sometimes it hurt so much you cant stop crying. and sometimes, you just shut yourself from the world.
some people tend to stop dating because of their past relationships. not dating isnt a bad thing. not dating, makes their lives happier. because they know, not only one person can shower them with love.
and then again, when you think you hadnt lead a girl/guy on, dont think they think the same way you do. if you really want to be friends, then just be friends. dont make a situation seem like you like a person, when you just want to know a person better.

you know you might not want to agree with what i wrote. but that's just some things i learn from people and myself. different people have different views.

okay.

i've been dreaming about school lately. hahah. might be because i miss school. in case you dont know, i've not been to school since last tuesday. wehehe.

then yesterday. had breakfast at mcd's with anggerek. you were 15minutes early for breakfast closing. ahahahahahha anyways, it was great. audrey and friend came at 15 past eleven. after that g went off to school while i headed for home sweet home. and then i watched cartoons. a call from bf at 15 past one. met him at the void deck for awhile. then we went home. slept at 230 in the morning. hehe.
woke up this morning at 1130. had my shower at noon. then met bf for awhile downstairs. i had a few packets of biscuits for lunch. heee. watched telly.
im in msn from 1500? i think. heh.
made pizza. and i already had two slices.

okay. steady as she goes

yours truly;

okay. there's nothing to do.

im having a bad stomachache. apart from the stomachache because of shitting, my abdomen hurts too. especially the right side.
anyways. i had my last visit to the toilet after i had a toast late in the evening. then i got so bored, i slept. nice weather to sleep in anyway. so i slept till 1830. then i watched tyra show. heh.
after praying, watched so you think you can dance. ate bread with hotdog. so far, no pain felt. heh. ouh except the right side, still hurts. it hurts when i walk laa. i've never felt this way, but i've experienced pain in the abdomen quite a few times. okay enough of aches laa. hmm.

i dont think i can sleep early tonight. if i really cant, then i'll resort to sleeping at three or four in the morning. watching tv, do the laundry, sweep the living room. i just hope no one calls me up tomorrow and tell me to go to school. ouh speaking of school, i've not started on my revisions. dammit.

as much as im bored, so is the entry.
till laters!

hello.

oac chalet on saturday was alright. heh. dont have pictures though. blergh.
lots of people turned up. 20 over? yeah.
didnt overnight when i actually could. double blergh. because the parents came home the next morning. anyways. i got home at around midnight. flagged a cab. the three musketeers escorted me to the main road. haha.

yesterday was abang az's wedding. rewang-ed. heh. all was alright laa. was there from noon till six or seven. then we headed to my aunt's sister's place for kenduri. bf called while we were still there. haha. talked to him for a while. after eating, we took off at 2000hours. three other uncles of mine with their family drove home. my family took the cab. so yeah. reached home half past eight. then showered.
bf called. then watched tv.

i didnt have a good night's sleep. urghh. kept waking up. and then i woke up at 1000 with a stomach ache. could the day get any worse? so far, i've visited the toilet five times. ahaha.
today. no plans.
right now rocking to a7x's mia.
next week, exam. 6th december. better start revising.

Trying Your Luck Lyrics
by The Strokes

You said you couldn't stay
You've seen it all before, I know
And sold you on their way
Oh honey that's ok

No harm, he's armed
Settin' off all your alarms
When I find out
I hope it's you who set this trap

And stuffers rarely change
At least I'm on my own again instead of
Anywhere with you
Oh tell me it's all the same

And I've lost my place again
I know this is surreal
But I'll try my luck with you
This life is on my side
Oh I am your one
Believe me, this is a chance
Oh, oh

Let's see what is for sale
He's trying not to give his job a chance
It's never gonna be
It's sad, but I agree
The signals don't seem right
It lasts for just one night, and then
I'm sorry that I said
That we were just good friends

No harm, he's armed
Set it off all your alarms
Entranced, I can't
Be here in time I'll think about that

And I've lost my page again
I know this is surreal
But I'll try my luck with you
This life is on my side
Well I am your one
Believe me, this is a chance
Oh, oh

dada!
love you.

currently on repeat is marcell's jangan pernah berubah.
heh. thanks to the sister.

i've just cleaned the house and wash the laundry. its 0418hours.
well apparently i cant sleep. so i kept myself busy with the housechores and television. i wrote an entry earlier but i deleted it. heh.

yesterday. stayed home. didnt have to go school. woke up at 0900. showered at 1100. heh. lunch and then i fell asleep from half past noon till 1430. bf called. wonder why i was so tired. then, i rolled around on my mattress. old school uh mattress, takde katil sume. wakaka. after that i played crosswords on the computer. dragged till 1700? around there uh. addictive i tell you. then i watched ellen's musical and tyra show followed.
nicole richie was tyra's guest. nicole lost so much weight laa. so thin. anyways, i like nicole richie. and tyra too.
then after praying, i played somemore crosswords. bf called again at half past nine.
after we hung up, i had the urge to update. so i did. then i remembered the collage i did a few days ago. and then i did another collage. haha. abit plain laa. heh.
thats it laa.

this is the one i did a few days ago.
rabbit; happy oneyear6months. *hugs*

got this done after rabbit's. heh.
yeah. you girls sound just like spring. *hugs*

there you go. oac pictures. finally uploaded. =)
oac chalet is this weekend. hope it turns out okay.

anyyways. last friday was the last training for the year. wooo. kay friday boring laa. same things.
a date with my rabbit[and as im typing this, there's a small fly crawling on my monitor] yesterday. walked around vivocity and harbourfront mall. actually uh. we rounded the same old places. there were too many people laa. weekend, so yeah.
then we headed to plaza sing bk for lunch. bumped into some friends. heh. we headed to paya lebar after that. since we were near his neighbourhood, he decided to go home and take a shower.
i took off at 2130hours after watching cars on dvd at his place. hehe.
todayyyy. i baked muffins! heh. for anggerek. sorry eh tarak present dah. heh.
met dude and g at starbucks tamp. bought venti choc frap. shared. they had their muffins. i brought 5. then they decided to catch a movie. STEP UP! weee. hehe. they bought their tickets then we went to the open plaza to just talk until i made my move. went over to rabbit's place again. with the muffins. heh.
i had shepherd's pie at his place. yummmeeh! watched bujang lapok on vcd. wahuahua. black and white films, i love.
i went home at around 2000hours.

back to school tomorrow. the day will be starting at 0900. ends at 1730. or maybe earlier. i hope.
ouh yes. i cut my hair. again. ehehe.

i guess this is all. till my next entry.

dada!

since im bored.
AND SINCE BLOGGER IS BEING A BITCH BY NOT UPLOADING THE PICS.
im not surprised i ended up doing this.
took this from nurul. heheh. =)

1) how old do you wish you are?
18. young and dangerous. tkmo mcm faham uh.huahua

2) what do you do when vending machines steal your money?
kick it. harhar. and try VERY hard to make it puke my money back out.

3) do you count yourself kind?
sometimes uh. haha.

4) If you could be fluent in any other language, what would it be?
espanol.

5) Do you know neighbours?
erms. just like that.

6) Do you follow your horoscope?
not all the time.

7) Would you move for the person you love?
hmm.

8) Do you believe that opposites attact?
erm. YES.

9) Favourite channel(s)?
cartoons. channel5. too bad i dont have cable.

10) Favourite place to go on weekends?
anywhere. as long as i have fun.

11) Showers or Baths?
showers. no bathtub.

12) Do you paint your nails?
nopes.

13) Do you trust people easily?
depends.

14) What are your phobias?
roaches. dogs. lizards. EXTREME height.

15) Do you keep a handwritten journal?
yeah.

16) Where would you rather be now?
i want to sit beside rabbit. =(

17) Who makes you feel warm and fuzzy?
rabbit. and my girls.

18) Heavy or light sleeper?
depends laa.

19) Are you paranoid?
hahah. erms. depends.

20) Are you impatient?
sometimes laa.

21) Whats your favourite pick up line?
pick up line uh? dont know. haha.

22) Whats your main ringtone on your mobile?
usher's bad girl.

23) What were you doing at midnight last night?
sleeping.

24) What did the last text on your phone says?
my prepaid msg.

25) Most recent movie you watched?
DOA.

26) Name three things you have on you at all times.
on me uh. my ring. undies and bra. wakaka.

27) What colour are your bedsheets?
bondage. hahaha.

28) what is your favourite part of the chicken?
wings.

29) dude... question???

30) How tall are you barefoot?
ooh im 151 and im proud of it. =)

31) What should ur partner have in themselves?
confidence.

32) What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
plain water.

33) Where do you think you'll be in 10 years?
working. have a career?

34) Have you received flowers before?
nopes.

35) Does someone have a crush on you?
nope.

36) Whats your favourite candy?
mentos. the freshmaker.

37) If you have three wishes, what will they be?
be happy and successful.
for now, i wish i had work.
for everyone i know to be safe and happy. ahaha. kental eh.

38) Four random people to do this.
naj, g, shak, dee. the four loveable ladies in this world!!
well nurul's mentioned them. ouh minus myself, i'd want illa to do this. heh.

okay. i dont know why oac's pics are not uploaded. cb balls. i'll upload them in my next entry.

anyways. school was okay. did revision in school. and since i dont owe my lecturers any assignments, school ended early for me. my class advisor blanja us lunch uh gang. nie sume ummal peh pasal. wahuahua.
so yeah. i reached home early.
then met bf for awhile since he was around tampines. passed him his camera then he went home.

saturday will be going out with him.
sunday will be going out with g. *heh heh*
i want to tour around sg. huahua. im getting bored of going to the same old places. taking the same old pictures. so bf was planning to go vivo and harbourfront mall this sat. we'll see.
sunday. i shall keep it to myself and to those who already know. heeee.

okay. today quite boring. and my stomach hurts. so. i'll see you when i see you.

good day.

hellos!
heh.
candy-relish doesnt exist. so please relink me okay.
thank yous. =)

school started at 1000hours today. i reached school at half past 10.
first class lesson was sw. i brought my pe attire but was lazy laa.
only me, hafiz and azwan came. after class was dismissed, we went for lunch.
actually it was my lunch/breakfast. i had ham and cheese bread. then we got bored.
went to the library.
class started at noon. we headed to class half an hour later.
sat for a retest theory for telecom wiring. all was good. as usual, i gave the guys answers.
the malay boys, specifically.

anyways.

i read nurul's blog.
she also mentioned that if he loves me very much, he wouldn't have let go of me. he wouldn't have left me bleeding.
to nurul; if he loves you, he will wait for you. he wouldnt be ignoring your calls and messages. despite him being tired from work. if he loves you, he would be ecstatic to receive your calls and messages.
sometimes you hide something so good, no one can notice it. i've been there. i only told people i still had feelings for him when they asked me. dont regret in whatever decisions you make. after all, regrets are meant to happen and you learn from them.
i gave up waiting at a certain point of time because some things happened. but the tables turned when he told me he missed me. all those times when i was missing him, i didnt tell him. i didnt want him to know. because i was afraid of rejection. he came back when i gave up.
love is unpredictable.
so do what you think is right for you. like i said, dont regret. ask yourself until when is this going to happen. until when am i going to feel this way. if you wait for him, will it be you whom he longed for. will it be you whom he's missing. will it be you he's loving. will it be you whom he'll pick.
there's someone waiting for you. dont let him give up on you. i know you're not ready, but i just want you to be happy. i hope this helped. hehe. good luck okay. love you baybeh.
muhd ahnaf, i still remember that sentence in italic. =) i love love love you baybeh.

well.
i feel like crying. because i hate to see my dad in this position.
someone's been testing his patience.
i've never seen my dad this frustrated before. as a daughter, i've misobeyed him, i've been rude to him. but i have never made him angry like how he is now.
i didnt mean to interfere with his problems but i overheard his conversations with that man over the phone a few times.
and i'll make shure that fucking man will pay.

i'll make a move now. thank you for reading! =)